SophiePf

There haven't been any posts of mine on DeviantArt for a while now. While I didn't draw a lot lately either, not even those made it here.

At the moment my relationship with DeviantArt is a strained one.

This website is filled to the brim with nostalgia for me. I had some very good times here. But of late a series of bad decisions (including not finishing the website makeover (like at least be consistent!), introduction of DreamUp, and an echo chamber for a front page) have made being on this platform not fun.

I'm uncertain how I want to proceed with this platform. I hoped to have an answer at this point, but I don't. So it's a vague post, just to give you some life sign.

I am way more active over on pillowfort, tho!

https://www.pillowfort.social/SophiePf

I've been having a hard time getting onto social media lately. Wondering what I really want out of social media and if I can actually achieve potential goals on platforms.

Social media has rarely been more than a "shout into the void media" for me.

I've become disillusioned with social media and don't really want to waste my time with it anymore. I thought I could hop back on it after my break last year, but I can't. It's exhausting and after using it for the better part of a decade I don't have anything to show for it. I can't really find a reason to still post stuff anymore. But if I were to "give up" now, was all that energy and labour I spent over the years just wasted? Was it all for nothing?

I cannot put into words just how much this eats away at me. Without conscious thought this pins expectations on my art, that my art has the potential to reach, but I'm not enough to give it that chance properly. I don't do enough.

But I also don't want to sit there and analyse algorithms. I want to sit there and draw and write and have fun.

It's not easy wearing all these hats.

So, I've not been active on here for over a year and even then I wasn't really paying attention to the platform anymore. It all just fizzled out as more people took to twitter and instagram.

But I'll be honest, I miss casually browsing art, I miss not having to figure out the optimal time for as many people as possible to see my art, I miss seeing the art of people I actually follow and I miss not having thrown metrics in my face 24/7. In other words, social media has just exhausted me and I want a more casual place to share my art again.

I've debated creating a new account, so my 12 year backlog doesn't bog me down too hard. And I don't think that even half the accounts of people following me here are even still active. This is something I'm still not 100% sure on. I kinda like the idea of a fresh start. But then, what am I going to do with the old account? Leave it up? Delete it?

But in the spirit of "Never put off until tomorrow what you can do today" I'm starting to post here again. I can still decide on everything else later. And who knows, maybe I'll be happy to just shove my old stuff in a folder labeled "old" and be done with it.

For now I am back and I intend to stay for a while.